"Oh, Marilla, looking forward to things is half the pleasure of them," exclaimed Anne. "You mayn't get the things themselves; but nothing can prevent you from having the fun of looking forward to them. Mrs Lynde says, 'Blessed are they who expect nothing, for they shall not be disappointed.' But I think it would be worse to expect nothing than to be disappointed."
-'Anne of Green Gables,' L.M. Montgomery
I have just reread one of my old favourites - it has been so long that the only part of the story I could really remember was Anne almost drowning when she borrows a punt and pretends to be Elaine from the Arthurian legends - and her resemblance to my ideal of Sparkles and Crumbs is uncanny! Heroine Holly has already written a gorgeous post about her, too...
"Do learn to take things calmly, child."
For Anne to take things calmly would have been to change her nature. All 'spirit and fire and dew', as she was, the pleasures and pains of life came to her with trebled intensity. Marilla felt this and was vaguely troubled over it, realising that the ups and downs of existence would probably bear hardly on this impulsive soul and not sufficiently understanding that the equally great capacity for delight might more than compensate. Therefore Marilla conceived it to be her duty to drill Anne into a tranquil uniformity of disposition as impossible and alien to her as to a dancing sunbeam in one of the brook shallows... The downfall of some dear hope or plan plunged Anne into 'deeps of affliction.' The fulfilment thereof exalted her to dizzy realms of delight...
"Sometimes I feel as if those exams meant everything, but when I look at the big buds swelling on those chestnut-trees and the misty blue air at the end of the streets they don't seem half so important."
"Oh, look, here's a big bee just tumbled out of an apple blossom. Just think what a lovely place to live - in an apple blossom! Fancy going to sleep in it when the wind was rocking it. If I wasn't a human girl I think I'd like to be a bee and live among the flowers."
"I'm sure I hope so," said Marilla sceptically.
But Matthew, who had been sitting mutely in his corner, laid a hand on Anne's shoulder when Marilla had gone out. "Don't give up all your romance, Anne," he whispered shyly, "a little of its is a good thing - not too uch, of course - but keep a little of it, Anne, keep a little of it."
Speaking of clothes, the camerado and I had a final dress-up for her Last Supper before she flew away to America - so I got to wear my new vintage dress, which seems made for hosting tea at Green Gables and reciting poetry at White Sands with Anne:-
My South Pacific-style rouched dress, handmade by Samamba
Sequinned sandals and corsage from Sainsbury's [believe it or not!]
1980s halterneck dress from dearly beloved Mela Mela
Red polkadot heels by Firetrap
Rebecca Hall is my new favourite heroine...
Hermione: Sir, you speak a language that I understand not: my life stands in the level of your dreams, which I'll lay down.
Leontes: Your actions are my dreams...
And last but not least, some thoughts I try not to forget...